another New Year is here again. On this last day of 2008, let's do a little flashback, shall we?

 

January 2008 - I've moved to Singapore, another beginning in a brand new place. This is my 7th move across cities and countries since I left home ten years ago (ya, kinda could guess my age now). Will this be the last move? I don't know...well, nobody can really tell, but one thing for sure, I am tired, very tired...tired of moving around and starting anew. My question now is not about where I am going next, but rather where I am going to land.

 

February to May 2008 - starting to settle into the Singapore lifestyle, work is catching up and the load is getting heavier. Many have asked, do I like Singapore compared to KL? What are the differences? Answer: depending on what is the subject about, lifestyle, friends, work, financial...at the end of the day, there are pros and cons on staying on different spots around the glove, it's all individusl's preferences and likings, nothing is perfect, right? As for me, honestly and realistically, the two best thing about Singapore is the safety and money. My family are no longer worry about me working alone abroad and I am able to save more with better spending ability; so there you go...

 

June 2008 - a nice holiday with parents and dear aunts, the Doctor May's Europe Trip. I was the co-guide, revisited places like London, Paris, Rome and Liverpool; overall, the trip was a little tiring but it was lots of fun and laugthers everywhere. Two highlights: bought myself a Gucci bag at London Summer Sale and got an LV purse as birthday present from mum. The best of all is to witness my dearest sister receiving her doctorate, proud and happy for Doctor Daphne May Chong, hurray!!!

 

July to October 2008 - workload getting heavier but going nowhere, frustration and anger evoked. Empty promises and lost in direction at work, wanted to go up the next level in career but stuck, physically and mentally exhausted, the same problem over and over again with no solution. Prepared myself for the alternatives and started to work my way out. As mum always say 'tomorrow ill be a better day'.

 

November 2008 - making it to the exit and towards another entrance; left a job of 2 years and joined another, with the hope of building a better career and profile. How is the future for me? Is this a good move? Not having even the slightest idea, but the very least I am trying...a clap for that?

 

December 2008 - the holiday month. Mentally tired, bottled neck, didn't know how to move forward in life, and worst of all, started to have doubts of myself. It is just not happening and I am not smiling....Took a short break and spent a nice Christmas with family. Bought everybody Christmas presents and spent a fulfilling dinner for the whole family. It did cause a little decrement in my pocket but it's all worth it; parents are proud, family is smiling healthily and I am happy.

 

Last but not least, the 2009 New Year resolution: live a healthy and happy life, learn and grow as much as possible, try me best to achieve career goals, hoping and looking out for the best and enkindle the smile

 

Welcome 2009, Happy New Year!

天荒地老，最好忘记，

笑也轻微，痛也轻微。

生老病死，相聚分离，

身不由己，心不由己。

Here is a meaningful and inspring prayer, just want to share...

For non-christian, it is just simple saying that, we are preparing ourselves (for the best) to meet that right person that is meant to be;

and when we do (meeting that right person at the right time), it will be beautiful and everlasting.

 

 

Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone

To have a deep soul relationship with another

To be loved thoroughly and exclusively

 

But God, to a Christian, says

"No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content with being loved by Me alone,

With giving yourself totally and reservedly to Me,

With having an intensely personal and unique relationship with Me alone,

Discovering that only in Me is your satisfaction to be found,

Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you.

You will never be united with another until you are united with Me alone,

Exclusive of anyone or anything else, exclusive of any other desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing,

and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,

One that you cannot imagine.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things.

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I Am.

Keep listening and learning the things I tell you.

You just wait, that's all

Don't be anxious, don't worry.

Don't look at things you think you want; You just keep looking off and away up to Me

Or you'll miss what I want to show you,

And then when you are ready...

I'll surprise you with a love far more wonderful than any You could dream of.

You see, until you are ready and until The one I have for you is ready

(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time)

Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me and the life I prepared for you

You won't be able to experience the love that exemplified your relationship with Me,

And this is the perfect Love;

 

and Dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me,

and to enjoy materially and concretely

The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love

That I offer you with Myself

Know that I love utterly.

I am God.

Believe it and be Satisfied"

~ St. Anthony of Padua

 

The season of LENT reminds us that the life we have and the material posessions we hold are simply LENT to us.

We are but pilgrims here on earth who will pass by only once.

We bring nohting when we die...

But we can leave behind the love we've shared, the hope we have given and the goodness we have done.

Have a meaningful LENTEN week.

 

Happy Easter!

This is the song that always melt my heart and always able to raise my spirit. Praises!!

 

 

  

 

As the deer panteth for the water

So my soul longeth after thee

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

 

You alone are my strength my shield

To You alone may my spirit yield

You alone are my hearts desire

And I long to worship thee

 

You're my friend and You are my brother,

Even though you are a king

I love you more than any other,

So much more than anything

 

I want You more than gold or silver,

Only You can satisfy

You alone are the real joy Giver,

And the apple of my eye

 

 

The smile that you see may be fake to tell you that I am fine

 

The confidence that is presented may be just to put on a good show

 

The independence seems firm, but it could be due to limited choices

 

The presentation looks nice, but who has ever wonder what is the inside?

 

 

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person.

 

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. 

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotinoally or spiritually.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an invoncenient time, this person say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die, sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desiers fulfilled, their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

 

Some people come into your life for a a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow and learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it, it is real; but only for a season.

 

There are also people who enters your life to stay for a LIFETIME.

They enter your life like angels sent from Heaven.

They are the ones who always manage to put a smile on your face, will always be there for you to lean on, to rely on.

Most importantly, always offer you a shoulder to cry on and wipe your tears away with the most caring, softest touch. Give you the strongest and lovingness hug...

And when this happen, you know that they are here to stay.

Appreciate it, treasure it and do not let it go.

Be thankful that you have people in your life that will last a LIFETIME.

Love never promises instant gratification, only ultimate fulfillment.

 

Love does not attach conditions...Genuine love is always a free gift.

 

Love encourages freedom of self. Love shares positive and negative reactions to warn and cold feelings.

 

Love, intimate love, will never reject others. It is the first to encourage and the last to condemn.

 

Love is doing everything you can to help others build whatever dreams they have.

 

Love means believing in someone, in something. It suppose a willingness to struggle, to work, to suffer, and to rejoice.

 

Love is on a constant journey to what others needs. It must be attractive, caring and open, both to what others say and to what others cannot say.

 

Love is firm, but when needed it must be tender.

 

Love is releazing and accepting that there will be disagreementes and disturbing emotions...There may be times when miles lay between but love is a commitment. It believes, and endures all things.

 

Love is reliable. Love is not selfish. Love is honesty.

 

Love is a choice and commitment to others' true and lasting happiness. It is dedicated to growth and fulfillment.

 

Love is a commitment to growth, happiness and fulfillment of one another.

 

do you know how to Love?

16th August 2007, 6.30pm, KLIA departure hall, row L, as I looked at my adult-to-be brother queueing up, waiting anxiously to check-in while double checking all his documents, I can't help but being proud of him. He has grown so much over the past 18 months, from a naive high school teenager who knows nothing about the outside world to being an independent and smart young man, who is looking forward to start a new life in USA, with a bright future ahead of him. May God showers His blessings on him!

 

Bro, take care and all the best! Love, JJjj

 

Today is my DAY, the day of celebration for ME

 

This special day started with a knock my room door at 12 midnight sharp, the beginning of 12th June 2007. I was aslept when I hear a knock on my door and my brother shouting outside, telling me to get to the door. Ok, fine, drag myself to the door and open the door in my messy hair and sleepy eyes. Unexpectedly, my brother was there holding a lovely ice-cream cake with lighten candles on it and his camera in another hand, singing me the birthday song. He's so sweetttttt....tho I didn't like the fact that he kept taking birthday photos of me in my worst sleepy look, but nevertheless, it felt great to have a thoughtful brother like Derek. Thx bro!

 

My birthday morning started with another surprise, actually 2 surprises. Not long after I arrived at work, there is a delivery for me - it's a bouquet of lovely white tulips, my favourite flower! The second surprise is another bouquet of flower that arrives near lunch time, it's red roses with 3 ferrero rocher chocolates in the middle, it's so beautiful. I love the flowers, so happy. Thx Thx Thank you so muchhhh

 

As usual, my family started calling and pouring birthday wishes on me, I miss them so much! Million thanks to my most beautiful and wonderful mummy, my 3 fantastic aunts, my siblings, dear grandma and all my little cousins. Thx for all the wishes, angpows, pressies and flower. I love all of you dearly, thanks for all the LOVE and Support since the day of my birth, won't be who and where I am today without anyone of you *love love love* I promise I'll be good and be the best I can. God bless!! *smuaks*

 

Also received wishes from frens and colleagues, thx everybody! Special thanks to my girls who made time for my celebration last weekend. Girls, thx so much for all ur wishes, pressies and most important of all, your FRIENDSHIP. I love each and everyone of you, so blessed to have you girls. May our sisterhood last a lifetime. This might sound a little lame but it says it all - Girls, Friendship Forever!! Btw, I love the handbags, lol

 

My birthday dinner was spent with my adult-to-be brother, it was a nice, relaxing dinner at Delicious and a good chat. My special day ended with a nice fruity Martini at a poolside restaurant in Hilton Hotel, accompanied with beautiful melody. It has been a great birthday and it will only get better and better and better, as my mum always says 'Tomorrow is always a better DAY'

 

I can now say that tho I am year older, but looking back at my life for the past 26 years, I can proudly and loudly say that I am one of the luckiest girl ever; And, it won't have been so wonderful without anyone of you...THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!!!!!! It's my Birthday! Hurray...yeah yeah yeah...I am so happy today, really very happy. Thank you again everybody.

Lately, I have been pilled up with things that I have and I want to do, and not being able to sleep well is not helping at all...*sigh

 

Work is getting heavier and I need to work hard to perform well, lots of things to learn and adopt, especially I'm terribly lack of technical knowledge. Starting to be involved with other businesses is also taking up a lot of my time, doing a lot of readings and understanding the businesses is crucial to achieve the first step. Being in touch friends and trying to have some fun is also necessary to release stress and enjoy life. Last but not least, must make time for exercise to keep my health on the best condition possible; tho this takes time, money and effort, but hope something come up soon to help dealing with my health issues. God be with me!

 

Having so much at hand and so little time to spare to fulfill each activities, plus I must have at least 7 hours sleep daily. Time is just not enough!! I can go nuts...but what life would be without some challenges, isn't it? blurrrrr....I don't know how I am going to do it, but must do IT!! 

what is Life? here is a thought that each answer will be uniquely different. Sometimes I can't help but wonder, what am I doing? what do I want in life? where will my future lies?

 

Life is short and time flies by like a silent rocket, some will say 'do no evil and live to enter the kingdom of Heaven', some will say 'I live for the present', some will say 'I eat just to continue living'...how about you? what are you living for?

 

Honestly, I am still in the midst of looking for my answer of living; hopefully, I'll find my LIFE soon..Cheers

On a rainy evening, as I was leaving work to pick up my brother from Taylor and thinking of where to bring my father for dinner, my dear black CRV just decided to stop moving in the middle lane of LDP highway. I was all alone, it was raining and yes, the traffic jam got worst behind me, cars started to make noise and drivers are starring at me when they passed by. I panicked!! tried calling AAM, put me on hold due to large amount of calls during peak, *sigh...

 

Since I was not too far from my office, I tried calling my colleagues whom I wish they are still nearby. Thank God, a few of them haven't leave office and agreed to come help. 5 boys (or men) found me and after checking my car, said it's overheat and adviced not to start the engine; and I didn't check the temperature while driving, fine, lady drivers, I know... 

 

After making a few calls and getting wet in the rain, one of my colleague managed to get hold of a tow service came and brought my car back. Two of them were even nice enough to wait with me till the tow service came and get things under controlled. You might ask where are the other 3 guys, hm..happily having dinner while I was stuck in the rain, since there were nothing much they can do wah.. okie, fine, acceptable.

 

Took emergency leave the next day to get my car fix; apparently, the engine fans are broken and needs replacements. money mah..Got my father to take care of that part  My black boy is fine now, yeah!!

 

Million thanks to David, Lam and Tien Yu who came and lend a helping hand, I really appreciate it and hope one day I can return the favour. God Bless! Oh ya, thx to KiatHao and KaiSheng too for visiting me stuck in the middle of LDP in the rain  

A sweet story to share with all my girls

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her Mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter. "Don't forget your Sisters," she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. "They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need Sisters. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them. "Remember that 'Sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other women relatives too. "You'll need other women. Women always do." What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm now a married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all I need to make my life  worthwhile!' 
  
But she listened to her Mother. She kept contact with her Sisters and made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one

after another, she gradually came to understand that her Mom really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, Sisters are the mainstays of her life. 
 
After more than 58 years of living in this world, here is what I've learned: 
 
THIS SAYS IT ALL: 

     Time passes. 
  
     Life happens. 
     Distance separates. 
     Children grow up. 
     Jobs come and go. 
     Love waxes and wanes. 
     Men don't do what they're supposed to do.
     Hearts break. 
     Parents die.
     Colleagues forget favors. 
     Careers end.
 
      B U T......... 
Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach. When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end. Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you...Or come in and carry you out. 

Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and

extended family, all bless our life! The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I. 
     

When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other. Every day, we need each other still. 
   

      Short and very sweet: 

There are more than twenty angels in this world. Ten are peacefully sleeping on clouds. Nine are playing.  And one is reading this special message at this moment.  

 

As I wish each and everyone of you Happiness and wonderful Life, don't forget to remember me!

Sisters, I love all of you! Miss you girls much...Happy days!